So this isn't a sex ed. lesson about "when a mommy and daddy love each other very much". It is a short who, what, when, why and how I find myself writing this all down.
Who: Essentially Me but in a way Sean, LuLu, Nicole, B-Man, Louie Louie and even NFL (Noraline Faye L)
What: How I Survive A Disease That Wants Me Dead
When: Although the battle has been being waged for years, It is today that I have joined in and starting fighting back.
Why: Because even though I am tired, I am still alive.
How: Hard Work, New Friends, and a Forgiving Family
This battle began a week ago last Wednesday. With full consciousness I took 6x the dose of Kolopin I was supposed to. I justified it and can still partially justify it, it was because of the most recent wonder drug I was started on was making me crawl out of my skin. I wanted to sleep through the discomfort and 6x my dose of Klonopin worked. It worked so well that I did it again and again, those three times are all that I remember Bhub. says there was at least one more self medicated sleep.
Thursday was gone, slept through, but the evening is remember in flashes of hospital gurneys, "blah, blah,blah" nurse speak, lovely matching silver toned bracelets (hand cuffs), a cold shower and exhausted sleep....and the psych ward or as we like to call it Nuts Are Us.
The psych ward is a well kept secret. If the world knew what a blast it was to be there more people would be signing themselves in everyday.
The details of the battle need not all come out now. What is important is that I survived. I came home, I freaked out and wanted back in, but I fought back and am among the living again.
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